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Postby Zolobei В» 11.08.2019

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This is my second post, and my second attempt in 2 days to control my addiction. I am in another country as a winter snow bird from Canada and just gambled half of my rent required this month. Of course I lost it, as I always due because I am an addict, although I had full intentions of just earning enough to be comfortable for the remainder of my time here. I am going to use this as my daily journal. I encourage your encouragement and support but ONLY positive words of encouragement please.

I know I should tell me kids grown, with families of thier own but I can't. The last time I told them they were so disappointed in me. I pray it is enough. I have already excluded myself in Ontario from the Casino; but that doesn't help here. I could check and see if they have that here - I will do that tomorrow! Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

PS: Let me just remind you to take a look at our privacy policy and terms and conditions so you know how it all works!

Hi everybody! Time to time time i come back here and read the stories about broken lives and day to day struggles fighting gambling. I was one of you, and still am, who came here reaching out for help, when everything just went wrong and could not see a way out.

I am gambling free since August , it is 19 months ,wow, there was times i thought i can't go one day without gambling. I just would like to encourage all of you who are in the beginning of your battle, don't give up, be strong, and don't punish yourself.

It is a sickness , and you can lock it away, you just have to say no. Sounds simple but for sure it isn't, and i don't want to sound like im a veteran who knows everything,and never in danger anymore. Gambling will always lurk in the back of your mind ,there is no medication ,which will erase it,but you have will power,and the rewards will keep coming.

Such as no worries, no more lies, you can enjoy and afford things again Sorry, i got a bit sentimental, but when i first came here, i was looking and found something similar, what gave me hope and strength for the future. Be strong!! I realized as I signed on here that I couldn't include yesterday as Day 1 as I gambled just before I wrote that first text in my 'journal'. I am feeling strong about my conviction to stop gambling completely.

I know I have said that before, but if I could feel this way every minute of every day I know I could control this addiction but I also know that is not the way it works.

I found a quote in a book I was reading. I resonated with it, so am going to write it here. The mind is restless and hard to restrain, but it may be restrained by practice and absence of desire. To whatsoever object the inconstant mind goes out gambling , one should subdue it, bring it back, and place it upon the spirit. Supreme bliss surely cometh to the sage whose mind is thus at peace. For me the breaktrough was, that i found psychatrist who i had a chat every week, same time, over the phone, one hour.

It was probably the first time in my life that i could speak to someone about my problem, without being judged, without being emotionally attached. He talked about whats happening in your brain when you gamble and why do you keep going back to gamble some more. Just by talking to someone, and understanding why is happening to you what is happening, helped me in a way i never imagined.

You are your own medicine, you need to decide that you have enough and want to turn thing around and I wear a black gum wistbrand, it is a constant reminder of who i am and where did i come from, whenever i feel weak i look at it and i am just proud of myself that i have come that far. You need to keep trying, it is okay to relapse, you may feel you have let yourself down, but if you stand up again and do days without gambling again, sooner or later it will become easier and longer.

I was wondering; since you talk to your Psychatrist over the phone and therefore distance isn't an issue, that I might get his contact information? I have tried therapists before, but I would definately be interested in contacting a good Psychatrist that comes recommended. Hi Sara , Well done on brushing yourself down and starting again.

I had to do this several times myself. As Vilcsogabi writes making it as difficult as we can to gamble realm helps. I am not sure about your quote for me personally because I know the only thing between me and My next gamble is my barriers.

I seem to have very poor willpower- in life in general. Well done on achieving Day 1- If you can do a day you can do a week , then a a month and so on. I had a trigger - it started when I wrote to my landlord that I didn't have enough money for rent, and that I would pay them in 2 weeks.

I got off the phone with my landlord and my first thought was - I should gamble with the 'rent' money in the house. This was less than an hour after I had typed in my journal that I was feeling confident about my ability to control my addiction. HaHa - that will teach me for being so flippant about this disease.

After my 'trigger' and the thought, I immediately went on here to the Live Support and reached out for help. I already had a few thoughts about what I could do so that I didn't gamble today but in the middle of my addiction I didn't trust myself. Just expressing my concerns and 'chatting' with Harry made all the difference.

I knew speaking to him was the right thing to do, as I wanted to self-exclude from the Casino here, but I don't speak Spanish. If I were to go by myself to the casino to self-exclude, I would have just been very frustrated - plus I would have probably just ended up gambling. I was apprehensive to speak to him about my addiction, but I am so glad I did. I told him about my addiction, and asked him to go with me to the Casino to self-exclude.

He said he would definately do that for me - and then we proceeded to talk about his own addiction to cocaine years ago. It was liberating to know that not only was he going to help me but that he understood me. Yesterday, after having a big trigger I sought help right away. I use to think I could do this myself. Now, I realize that help is important to my 'recovery'. I can not do this alone, which is what I have been trying to do for years. Yesterday, I went to the two casinos that I have easy access to and told them to exclude me.

I also signed up for some on-line therapy. I worked on it today and I have to say it is working. I worked on this for a few hours this morning and there were times I had tears in my eyes, which to me ws proof that is it working because I very rarely cry. NOTE - I'm not finish yet, but have already had a breakthrough with this one session.

I also believe that gambling addiction is a symptom. Hence a lot of therapy. I could never affort to pay for the amount of therapy I would need directly, so this on-line site may be my answer I believe. I am afraid to tell my grown kids about my addiction again. Yesterday, I would have said that I would never tell them, and deal with it on my own. Now, I am sure I am going to I might even go as far as saying I have to!

I will feel ashamed that I have been hiding this addiction from them, and that I have never really managed my addiction. I will feel sad for lying to them. I will feel inadequate because I can not control this addiction I will feel judged because I believe they see me as being weak I will feel sad because they will be disappointed in me. After my session, I came to a different conclusion. Why I need to tell them, and how am I going to tell them. Why: - I need to tell them so I am not hiding this from them, and hence keeping it secretive.

I need to be transparent if I have any hope of managing this addiction. I will ask them to not judge me, but to please understand that this is a big step for me - I know that telling them will hurt them, but that I want to be open and honest. I will tell them that I am trying to manage this addiction and my marijuana addiction as well-even though I have not used this for 4 months now ; but that I believe it stems from more than just 'an addiction' and that there are underlying causes that I am now trying to uncover so I can finally heal.

They know of my childhood, know some of the challenges I have faced, my obvious problems with relationships, and money and now I feel alone and broken In this way, I might be able to heal my life and control my addictions. I will also tell them - "It is a big undertaking, but I am ready to do what it takes, and I am asking for your support". I am not sure what I need for support, so we can discuss that, and what I am doing currently in detail.

I will obviously discuss anything else that you think might benefit my recovery. It's day 3 and I'm confident I will be gamble free for at least 6 weeks because of the safe-guards I now have in place.

After 6 weeks I will be back home and will have to address other safe guards there. I decided to add the date in the subject line so I could keep track, when I added the year, I thought of a year from now gamble free, and felt like I could achieve that!

It feels good to be out of the full blown grips of the gambling cycle but I always surprise myself with how much I relate to 'if I were still gambling I thought I have left more than that on my slot tickets - like chump change It's crazy to think about how I got so caught up in the gambling addiction, and how during that time money means nothing except for the ability to keep playing.

I am writing these posts as a daily journal for myself right now If I continue to do this, keep necessary safe guards in place, and keep working on myself, I am hoping that I will stay gamble free from now on.

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Postby Saran В» 11.08.2019

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Postby Dijind В» 11.08.2019

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Postby Kiran В» 11.08.2019

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Postby Fenrikora В» 11.08.2019

I am breathing a big sigh of relief Yesterday, I did indeed exercise in the pool and as Idi wrote so clearly - it did feel so much better walking out of the pool after exercising than it would have felt if I had walked out of the casino after losing the rent. Something that would make you think 'if I was still gambling I wouldn't of been able to do this'. I am praying that everyone finds their way in recovery. What do you suggest at this point?

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Postby Brabei В» 11.08.2019

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Postby Samum В» 11.08.2019

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Postby JoJokazahn В» 11.08.2019

It is difficult when out friends gamble but sometimes we just have to put ourselves first! He knows better. Thanks for your support regarding my dog, I am going to try as hard saving her as I am trying to save myself from this addiction.

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Postby Shakajas В» 11.08.2019

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Postby Kigagar В» 11.08.2019

I hope he wont but I am trying to imagine the worst but I know that life is more imaginative and more creative than I, so I feel even more scared of what lies ahead possibly for my family. It will destroy his reputation and might make him feel worse so perhaps not? Do Games for s60v3 download believe I am finished?

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Postby Mikabar В» 11.08.2019

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Postby Shaktikus В» 11.08.2019

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